Have you ever noticed that the more you want something the further out of reach it becomes? I have often felt like life was just that cruel. The minute it heard me speak the words of something I was desiring it was like it set out to keep us apart. But I have been inspired this morning by a different perspective on the matter. It is actually my wanting the thing so much that is keeping it from me. Merely because I am trying so hard to make it happen in just the exact way I would like and NOW. It’s a little like being in a pool and seeing something floating just out of reach …do you notice the more you splash and kick and propel yourself towards that thing, the waves from your own movement keep pushing it further from you?
I have had a lightbulb moment, my friends !! These do not happen often by the way.
I have been told that I am very impatient and often like the wind, meaning that I blow in here and then I’m out the next minute. I never wait !! I never settle down like a good tea and just simmer in the moment allowing the taste and smell of my life to appear. I am like a vapor that waits a millisecond for something and when it doesn’t show itself, I am either on to something else or off chasing it in a different way.
One of my favorite quotes is: “There is a difference between being still and doing nothing.”
Being still is being mindful, it’s being patient, it’s staying focused, being thankful, living life, letting go of the expectations of when, where, how and why and simply just trusting that my needs will be met. It is allowing things to work themselves out in the way that God desires which is good for me and good for those involved. It is opening my hands and my heart and preparing myself to receive what I need to come into my life and then BEING THERE when it happens.
Timing is everything !! And I have no sense of time. In fact I don’t even own a watch. You know why? I hate time !! It’s just another thing to be impatient about. And I feel like it’s running my life. lol But that’s another post.
“happiness feels a lot like sorrow… let it be… you can’t make it come and go.”
